Well, I am a few days away from the end of my biggest and most lucrative freelance contract for the year, and I am a bit nervous that I don't have anything lined up. I have tried to put some ideas and feelers out there, but I don't have any bites yet. I was really upset about this over the weekend, but I think I have come to a sort of decision to help me work through the anxiety.
The last three years have been a whirlwind. After the hurricane we were on super auto pilot as far as getting jobs and a house and cleaning up our financial New Orleans mess. I guess you could say we were in financial survival mode. Then, in the past two years I had the long illnesses ad deaths of my grandmother, grandfather, and my own dad just this past July. Then, of course, the birth of our own baby Bean 6 months ago. it's been just a whirlwind for three straight years, and I've done everything I could for my family and to make sure we didn't go over a cliff financially.
The point? Well, I was stressing out about not having worked lined up and I started to think that maybe that was a blessing. Maybe it's time I had some down time, and started taking care of myself. Find a yoga class, do a juice cleanse to clear out any junk in my body, and maybe just BE, here and now.
So yes, Now I am finally looking forward to my time off and the end of this gig. The work will come. it will work out. But first, it's time I attended to some of my own needs for the first time in three years, and started tending to my health and well-being a bit.
Upset my job is gone, but then again...
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Enjoy your time off in between gigs!
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But if you are truly having down time, well, sounds like you are well deserving of a break!
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